Every day I awake at around 7am in the morning, then I have
to do the horse’s stall which is assign to me and this consist of basically
cleaning it up. I have no problem with this, but my addiction to watch series
makes this a problem.
Now my day schedule is very easy to follow actually, I wake
up, do horse’s stalls, eat and get ready until 8am, then work on the farm up
until 12pm. The rest of the afternoon I have time for myself until 4pm whereas
I have to get the horse’s stall ready, with the evening to do anything I want,
if I don’t have food to prepare.
Now, you can probably imagine what I do with all this time
off during the day, I watch series. What happens before 12pm? I am busy working
on the farm with a mind rambling off about these series and how bad I want to
watch them.
In every moment of me doing my physical work, I think of how
fast and quickly I can get done with it to be able to sit in front of a
computer watching something. This leads to me doing work halfway through, not
being in the moment breathing and enjoying what I do, and be distracted by some
invisible string pulling me to the computer where my “Heaven” is.
This has caused me to learn my work presentation in
about 2 weeks, and not in a few days, as I am capable of doing. Why? Because I had a distracted mind when something was explained to me, where as I did not
need a second explanation to, but did have to ask a second time because of this
distraction/addiction I have to watch a simple series.
This addiction has taken away my freedom, gluing me to the
computer, keeping me in my room, taking away my communication skills, because I
was not using it, I was even scared to talk over a phone when I had to call someone to create my
first business appointment.
This week things are better, I broke through the barriers, I distracted myself with
responsibilities, and other things to get my body and eyes away from the
computer, I breathed through the moments where I physically worked on the farm,
expressing myself, and as time went by, the addiction was fading, but not gone. Still need to deal with it, completely.
