Day 92 – Unsafe, Part 3

When and as I see myself feeling unsafe because of freedom of choice I have within my occupation I stop and I breathe. I realise that this feeling of being unsafe is just because I am not directing self, and taking on the responsibility,

When and as I see myself feeling overwhelmed due to freedom of choice, I stop and I breathe, I realise that I am just displaced within myself, and that I need to re-align my direction and responsibility and thus I commit and allow myself within the moment of the feeling to inhale, make the decision within myself to move myself forward with self-direction and responsibility.

When and as I see myself going into self-doubt and due to the doubt that I will not be moving forward within myself and my occupation, so I stop and I breathe, to see and assess the situation and to allow myself to not doubt but instead go ahead, and make my choice, and even if they are wrong or not the best, this is how I will learn, and gain experience.

When and as I see myself having triggered and activate the point for a train of thoughts to run through my mind by thinking that I am unsafe, I stop and I breathe, I concentrate on my body, fingers and toes, to get my focus off of the thoughts, and get my sense of direction in order. Thus commit myself to focus on the physical, at what is here, in the word that I can see in front of me, and what I need to do next.

When and as I see myself feeling that I will be safe within the system as having a job, working under a boss, I stop and I breathe. I realise that this is just an illusion and that it is actually not as safe as I make myself believe it to be. Thus I commit myself to let go of this believe within myself by realising that I am in control of my reality and what I do within it, thus realising that I am here, in the physical moving myself and my word accordingly to what I need to achieve.

When and as I see myself following within the footsteps of acting and living as if I am a person that is just employed and not realising that I am actually running a business, I stop and I breathe, to realise that I am limiting myself in the aspect of standing firm within my word and my deed, not allowing myself to go out into the business world and speak my word with meaning. I commit and allow myself to take in this responsibility as self, and direct myself within each and every moment that I am walking within my shoes to give it my all, and to live my words that I speak – to be able to reach my true potential within what I am capable of in this point in time.

When and as I see myself feeling or believing that I am incompetent because I have struggles with communicating with ease, I stop and I breathe, I realise that this is a point that will hinder me further in life, and if I do not start using the tools that is being proved to improve myself with, I will keep on having this pattern of feeling incompetent, doubt and fear within myself when speaking to others – again hindering my business and myself from reaching my potentials. I commit and allow myself to when and as I speak, meaning communicating, with other people that the words I use is mine, that I am certain of them, that I understand my own words, and that I speak it off my chest, from within – to feel the flow within body, my chest, to my first instance of opening my mouth as the word is leaving my mouth onto the person I am in contact with, to be sure that I am directing myself, my words, my world – thus self-directing within communicating.

When and as I see myself wanting to be untruthful towards myself, and wanting to settle for less, I stop and I realise that this is not what is best for all, by limiting my myself I am limiting the world, for I have something to offer – as do all – as so I have to play my role, so I commit and allow myself to eradicate this pattern of thoughts by stabilising my body in the physical, first with a breath inhaling-exhaling and be here, to then focus on my reality and my body – finger tips and toes – and from that moment on, implement self-direction and responsibility.

Day 89 - Discipline

Let us define the word discipline; develop behaviour by instruction and practice; especially to teach self-control. 

Simply said; it is to make up your bed in the morning without your mother telling you to do so.

It is that self-movement behind your decisions, meaning if today you decide to start jogging every morning at 6am, then you need the discipline to wake up at 6am every day. Get dressed and go jogging.

What do I mean by the self-movement behind your decisions? Well this is that little person in your head, that’s not really there because it is you, your essence, that makes a decision so you can actually make a decision – meaning practically living it and following through on it, otherwise known as a useless thought that is just bugging you for it shows you your lack of discipline.

How many times in your life have you ever had those late-night-bed-time-thoughts? Where you wake up the next morning with nothing changed, but in your mind the previous night you were so motivated and ready to take on the world, to be a better person, to help others, to achieve your dreams, but, just nothing the following day. That happens because you were only in your mind, instead of sleeping, to where you can wake up the next day, be disciplined toward yourself, and actually do these things you did not think about, and change your world.

You learn this new way of discipline by starting small, setting up a task for yourself to do every day for the next 3 to 4 weeks, for instance, looking at myself, I started with making up my bed, I succeeded. After this small task you’ll start to see, hey I can do it, and so you start with your second small task, let’s say you never ate breakfast in the morning, so now, again, start small. Eat a light meal every morning, get that metabolism working.

After this, you’ll get that realisation again, again! You’ll see that you can do anything that is possible, in the physical, as here, as YOU, as YOU are making these decision now, making (creating) that self-movement, and so apply it in you practical everyday life. This new sense of discipline obviously requires you to take small steps - as one will not jump into the middle of the ocean not knowing how to swim yet. So, Instead of losing hours of sleep thinking about motivational shit, and not gaining anything from it, except for disappointment the day after, go to sleep, get your rest in and get your discipline in order.