Have you ever had a moment in time
where you just randomly think back and reflect on your life, and saw this clear
image of yourself interacting with a person and where they’d point out a very
peculiar trait or signature of you, yourself and who you are in those certain
moments, for an type of phrase or pattern that you have just used that is
“unique” to only you?
I have experience this today for the
first time, and within this I have realise that with these patterns that I use
to communicate with and how I interact with people are actually who I am.
Within this weird realisation, I obviously realised that it is me, my trait, my
pattern and no one else’s and that I have never in my life before really accepted
it as my own. I have always played in this body of mine, since I have been a
child, as if I am in third person view. That I can look at the world through
someone’s eyes that is not mine, but actually is. Meaning always looking at
everything around me happening, seeing people moving forward and creating life
for themselves while I am just sitting here waiting for my life to start
happening, doing so in the third person view.
So within this realisation I have seen
that the times that I have reflected on just now, where people would point out
“me”, I have been playing in that short instance of my life as a first person,
for I was directing and controlling myself, for I was in my “element” and
accepted in that moment myself for who I am and moved myself, and enjoyed each
and every second of it, for I was here. But these moments are so rare. That is how
I had this realisation, through seeing this point I can now start moving myself
within these patterns and motions, accepting them as mine and that I have
created them, I am responsible for each and every action I take.
And through doing so, accepting all
these things as mine, and purely by doing so, only then can I start changing
myself to where I can live out my utmost potential where I am me for who I am
and not just a pattern playing out thinking I am me.
Obviously through using the tools that
I have acquired, changing my patterns and believes to life in self-direction
and self-responsibility.
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