Day 62 – Inferiority towards intelligence, Part 2

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior toward a person because of the intellectual power they may possess, and that I am allowing myself to feel shaken within this conversation, instead of standing my ground and follow simple self direction.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to put people and brackets - giving them class - and through this judge them and create expectation to what might happen, or how the conversation might go, instead of being here in the present accepting things for as it is, and to see it playing out for what it is, instead of creating projected ideas of how things may play out, for as they don't play out as expected - I would be lost.

I forgive myself for I have accepted and allowed myself to find it difficult to keep this person interested within my conversation because of the fact that he already understood 70% of what I am saying, and even predicting my next words that I want to use.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to want to judge myself for the idea of me not understanding the new kind of slang that I am introduced to, and thus have to ask question over and over, where as the person has to repeat themselves to me.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to be in a comfort zone with the kind of people I am dealing with, not allowing myself to penetrate new challenges within my world.

I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed myself to feel inferior toward this person because of my ears, that they were blocked and I could not hear them properly, forcing me to ask them to repeat themselves because what is being said in these conversation is important.

I forgive myself for I have accepted and allowed myself to participate in back-chat because of the situation I am, thus directing myself into a self-judgment state of where I am creating my situation as I am the inferior, and my client is the superior.