I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself not to life in the moment of here, doing my stable in a way of
just getting it finished (half heartedly), instead of doing it the way I
should, all because of the fact that I am living in my mind in some other non-existing
reality, instead of being here with my responsibility.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to feel like cleaning this extra stable is a burden for me at
this moment, to feel that I could have done something else within this time,
letting my mind wonder of and following it to where ever, instead of breathing
in the fresh horse poop air (... hehe) and be here enjoying life, to have the privilege
to experience life with farm animals and the care taking of them.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to believe the cleaning of the stables is not my responsibility,
but someone else’s and therefore I do not have to clean it up to the standard
of what is expected, creating thoughts of resistance within this moment of believe.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to create the idea of “I have better things to do with my time”
when the responsibility is given to me, creating thoughts within my mind when at
stables cleaning them, thoughts where I am busy doing other “enjoyable” things
like playing computer games, or watching series.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to resist the point of going to the stables, wishing I do not
have to do it so early in the morning, especially when I have been given a
second stable to clean.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to resist cleaning up the stables, not wanting to go there,
through doing this creating a drag in the actual physical cleaning of the
stable, instead of breathing and allowing myself to clean the stable, where as
this will make me more effective in doing so.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to want to shift the responsibility that has been given to me
upon someone else for it is not my stable to clean, because of a point of
self-interest, where as my time will be used and that I do not feel like giving
it.
I forgive myself for I have accepted and
allowed myself to be selfish with my time, not wanting to spend it on someone
else, because I have a believe that I deserve this time for me, because there
is a reward system still within my mind where every deed I do needs a reward given,
meaning I am not living to my fullest potential, unconditionally.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to feel that I need to be rewarded for everything I do, thus
creating a resistance within me while doing the stable because it feels like I
am not being rewarded but instead being punished.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed myself to think that cleaning the stables is a punishment toward me for
I have no actual horse to look after, for I have no connection to any of the
horses, for I have no “fun” or “joy” with them.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and
allowed these thoughts to cross my mind and to accept them as a believe and
through this acceptance I have created an inequality within me and towards the
horses creating the experience of caring for them negative.
I forgive myself that I have accepted and allowed
myself to do the stable halfway and leave the hard work for the next person who
are going to clean this stable, making it just more difficult for them.
I forgive myself that I haven’t accepted and
allowed myself to stand within oneness and equality with the horses, and the
care taking of the horses, for they are the ones spending 12 hours in that confined
space, and so it has to be clean and most comfortable as possible and thus must
not be influenced by me for my self-interest that plays out in the moment of
the cleaning and care taking.
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